kahin zameen to kahin asmaan nahi milta....

This is what the departing 2007 leaves me thinking....

As for most of us, to me 2007 was one phenomenal year... had too much to give and even more to take away.

Too many lessons learnt, too many revelations, too many realisations, too many smiles , even more tears.

But as it bids me good bye, a stronger, more composed, better prepared to face the world ME smiles back. Thats what a tough year does to you.

Life throws at you absolutely unexpected circumstances; you, at first, get startled, blink for a while, catch hold of yourself, punch back hard and come out winning.
And at the end of it all, you know it was for the better, for you to move few steps ahead of where you were, to realise your strength, to make sure you don't forget that you are blessed.

The year taught me that what you see is not always true and that what one says is many a times not even remotely related to what one thinks and does. It taught me that I am not always right and that I can take suicidal decisions. It taught me that I am my best counsellor and that clarity of thoughts leads to success. It taught me that there is a couple some 2000 kms from here who was, is and will always be there and I can never thank God enough for them.

Today I understand myself better, I love life more, I value my people more than ever, I have a dream and the chase had already begun.

The new year is welcome...
Hope it brings lots of happiness to the world.... and lots of luck to me and my people... :D
Fingers crossed !!!!!!

Night is dark...night is young...

The most enigmatic yet the most beautiful time of the day...NIGHT !!!!

The end to some,the beginning to some others...
The end of all hopes to some,the first ray of hope to some others...

To some,it is just another few hours of fun...
To some,it is the end of another 24 hours of misery...

To me,it is the time to be with myself; self analysis, introspection, contemplation. It is the only time when I think of only those things that matter; the time when I am the convict, the victim and also the judge :)

It is the time when great ideas come to my mind, when previous great ideas start seeming not so great and the great and not so great ideas get dropped.

It is the time when I seriously plan my future, when I decide my priorities, when I realise 'what' and more importantly 'who' matters.

It strengthens my belief in myself, in my aspirations and my dreams.The starry-eyed femme embraces slumber with a smile on her face and peace in her thoughts....

Its won in the mind....

At times you just can't move on...there is something that's always eating you...

You know that you are right,that you are moving in right direction,that whatever you thought is correct is turning to be correct eventually,that the destination is near...

You have spent months pondering over your strategy,over your action plan,over your dreams and the possibility of those dreams coming true...

And then suddenly...you feel you have lost it all...though actually you haven't...but this fear doesn't let you move ahead,it pulls you back,it deprives you of all your well deserved hopes,it breaks you down...

Never let this take charge of you,fight against it,win over it...

Let nothing stop you...
Its your world....GO...CONQUER IT...

One hour and twenty minutes by the window

It started at around 6.45 in the evening...may be a few minutes here or there...and continued for more than an hour...it was pleasure and pain...my way back home after a tiring day at work...
Now whats new in this? These unwanted trips to office and back are a daily routine..what is it about this one that I had to write about it?Nothing I guess....just that this one was more of a journey through life...more of an introspection...
It actually happens to me when I get to hear those melodious tunes on FM,it takes me back...to my people...to my childhood...to my dost log...to my lost log...
Today when I look at my earlier posts,I realise how foolish I was not to like it when things had not even started turning as cruel to me as they finally did.
The year gone by was just too much for me if not more...it was height of pain,torture and tears...never did I cry this much in my life before...
But then as they say....birds fly...tears die and all that stuff...
And I was not supposed to be sulking on all this in this post by any means...
Here I am just narrating a fragment of my life...as small as an hour...as big as a lifetime...
Was just surfing the channels last evening when caught hold of saiyaan...(the new one from kailash kher) by sheer fluke...and that is how it all started...with appreciable contributions from loote koi man ka nagar(abhimaan),salaam namaste(title track),mayari(palash sen) to push me into a fresh kya khoya kya paya drama...
And then it seemed to go like a slideshow...the noida days...the initial few days at bangalore...the good,not so good,very good and very very bad days that followed...and the concluding thought as always being "jo hota hai,achche ke liye hi hota hai"...
Thoughts kept moving from high to low and low to high absolutely in accordance with the moods of the songs that were playing...and then it came...all of a sudden...rind posh maal(mission kashmir) and threw me off guard...into the golden period of some 6 or 7 years back...those lovely school days...
Not that I started humming "sabse pyare school days,humare pyare school dayssss"as we did in those days while idling away in the corridors,but for sure was lost in those sweet memories for quite long...and then there is so much to remember...classes sans interest in studies,gazing out at clouds to find out what they wish to look like that day...lab classes with all the mischief done and witnessed,exams,results and parents teachers meets,science and arts exhibitions,cultural and sports events and month long preparation phase being the best part without doubt...
Oh how i miss those days...that air of freedom,that sense of security...
Only now do i know what it means to know that whatever you have gone through the day,at the end of it you are with your parents who'll go beyond all limits just to make sure you sleep with a smile on your face and peace in your thoughts...
Never would they know how badly i miss them...neither they should...
And now as i wind this up...all that I can think of is...
"kitni baatein yaad aati hain...tasveerein si ban jati hain"....